I'm enjoying myself but right now I've got just a bit too much going on. I'm trying to get ready and get a place on the team for a public speaking competition next Saturday, I want to do well because the prize is £150 in vouches for the local mac shop and that would get me an iPod which would be nice. Only Tech crew are starting to get ready for the school production which means in two weeks I've got a week of boarding scaffolding and painting followed by endless rehearsals and performances. The same weekend were painting I'm supposed to be at a residential with my Guide unit.

Add on top of that the fact that I've none of our teachers taught us anything at the end of last week because they said people who wouldn't take Tamiflu to stop the spread of swine flu had to stay at home, so most of my classes were nearly empty. I have four exams after christmas one of them counts for most of my ICT. That and `I now have no idea what to drop at all because I might be able to finish my A2 ICT by Jan next year and will have done most of the coursework for it by then so it seems a waste to drop it but I don't want to drop english and I need my physics, maths and further maths. It would be insane to take five subjects next year but I just don't know what to do.

I've got my dad reading my book to get a really objective adult view on it. He works for a publisher and will hopefully be able to pass it on to someone and put in a good word for me. I've been reading back through it myself and I think it's good but I can't tell if thats just me. Anyway just because it's been floating around my head loads I have officially started book two! The finished word count on book one was: 91,787 I am very pleased with it even if the ending is a bit soppy. I'm on the war path looking for people to read at least a bit of it and tell me what they think.

Do other people have the problem where they're not sure if they're work is as good as they think it is. I think what I've written is a propper book and that it works but at the same time I'm really not sure if it's any good or even makes sense to anyone but me. I'm worried the endings too long or there are bits in the middle that go on for too long or seem random or just don't make sense. I don't know if other people will be able to connect with the character like I have. I set out to write a book I would want to read because anything else seemed silly but I don't know if anyone else would want to read it.

And now i've rambled loads in the middle of my journal and no one is going to read this to the end...

To who ever is still reading, thank you for putting up with my stressy obsessiveness and I promise not to do it in my next journal (not this much anyway).
Does anyone else always find that the winter term is insanely busy and tiring?

Hope people have a good weekend.
Bye Bye